emlyn/lee/elliot/aspen, they/he. lives in a blanket nest. is growing a beak to peck passers-by
space mermaid goddesses redraw! the one on the bottom is from 2018, up top is the new one. i don't mean to brag, but god am i way better now. two years of semi-consistent practice will do that, i suppose! it's nice to know i can actually apply gradients now, because clearly i had no idea what i was doing originally.
to go with my moon. found my good pens finally lmao bye biro
They say there are dragons in space. Hidden in the darkest places in the galaxy, beings as old as the stars. They say they are born in nebulae and die as supernovae, and that the spationaut who catches their eyes will travel in space without fear, for the dragons will protect them. No one has ever seen one, and no one will, as they are made of legends and dreams. But sometimes, when gazing at the stars, one cannot help but feel the stars gaze back.
Kinda old illustration I made of a space dragon for my story. Spationauts have many myths and legends about space, but this is the most known one.
sometimes writing is looking through ur tree handbook to find out which bark corresponds with ur main characters hair colour
i didnt even Ask for donations smh,,
obi wan whoever you are....ily
im not having a great time
my back pain just gets worse and worse every day but i cant keep taking codeine so theres fuck all anyone can do
universal credit were supposed to fucking pay me today but i had to change my bank details last week which has led to a whole series of fucking appointments and i cant get paid until at least tomorrow apparently bc of this stupid fucking red fucking tape there for no fucking reason at all fucking hell
bf had surgery on his toe and its Not Healing Well and it might be septic and i really fucking hope not bc hes gna end up losing his toe or even his whole fucking foot and oh my god if he goes into hospital he might get coronavirus and he has severe asthma i Dont want him to die jfc
oh hes Also severely vitamin d deficient so. theres that.
plus im on my period which means dysphoria
also music is like my main coping mechanism but i havent been able to afford to pay spotify for two months so like i cant properly listen to music and its driving me up the fucking wall i cant comfort myself im in so much pain i cant even curl up into a ball to comfort myself when i need to and i hate it hate it
im supposed to start therapy this week but im Dreading it bc i have this horrible fear that as soon as i say im trans theyll discharge me and tell me to wait for my clinic referral which is not gna fucking happen for months,,,, bc apparently two in the Entire Country is enough,,,, oh Also the shit with liz truss is making me Terrified bc if theres ever a time for slipping shit sneakily under the radar its now and im so scared
my favourite genre of animal crossing character is himbo
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★ eat anything?
★ drink anything?
★ brush your hair?
★ brush your teeth?
★ put deodorant on?
★ unclench your jaw?
★ feed your pets (if any)?
★ take your meds (if any)?
★ do your homework (if any)?
★ take a few moments to stretch?
★ add that thing to your blacklist?
★ do something that makes you happy?
★ ask for help on that thing you're struggling with (if any)?
★ take a shower?
★ make your bed?
★ look at any flowers?
★ pick up some groceries?
★ tell someone that you care about them?
★ apply for that job you've been eyeing (if any)?
★ see the new episode of that thing you're trying to keep up with?
★ do your laundry?
★ organize your room?
it's okay to be unable to do these things, whether it be less often then you'd initially like or at all. you know your limits; take care of yourself to the best of your ability!
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anyway ive been rlly inactive and uhh havent updated yall on the Shit that is goin on in my life so
my back pain gets worse and worse and i cant have physio bc of lockdown,, im on so many fucken drugs rn for this shit
my bf's sister and her partner got made homeless so theyre sleeping on our floor atm
the landlord is refusing to fix the fridge, the fire alarm doesnt work and the fire lights in the staircase dont work
so were tryna get somewhere else for the four of us bc none of us feel safe or comfortable here but its practically impossible atm
i am stressed to fuck
bfs sister gave me animal crossing new leaf tho so,, silver linings
oh ive got like 6 hours sleep over the past 3 days
as i type this i have a headache it started at 6am its now 2pm
running out of food
everyones fucking tense and we cant get alone time bc were overcrowded
shit heap!!! pile of shit!!! thats life rn!!!!
ive decided to learn old norse tho so like. i have Purpose at least
altho im also having a spiritual crisis so,,,,,,,,
im a fucking mess. essentially. is the point of this post.
BREAKING: New Tory Coronavirus Regulations Make It ILLEGAL To Sing 'I Believe In A Thing Called Love' By The Darkness
idk if this is picky/perfectionist but i really do feel like if youre gna make a playlist around a particular theme then the lyrics of the songs should fit the theme??? at least a little?
like i understand the vibes i do but it is rlly a pet peeve of mine when the lyrics mean the exact opposite of what the playlist is supposed to be about
sometimes i listen to someones autumn/winter playlist and its like yea,, , you have seasonal depression